Too Much – An Apology

I can be “too much”
at times
Too Much
for others
and sometimes
TOO MUCH
…..for myself
I see a thread
and I pull at it,
I. Pull. At. It.
SEARCHING
for answers
even though every fibre
in my body
is urging me to
STOP
I’m too driven
too focused
on seeing it through
on self-destruction
RESISTANCE
is futile
I continue
to pull at it,
pull at it
keep pulling at it
blindly
unaware
that not only
am i
pulling;
but also pushing,
You
– away
INEVITABLY
I pull harder
pulling
grasping
unravelling it
’til there’s nothing left
to pull at
nothing at all
NOTHING
only then,
bereft,
at my willful
destruction
of the pile of loose ends
In my hands
do I
REFLECT…..
I stop feeling
like I’m “too much”
and start feeling like
I’m “not enough”